Well Fuck, it’s 2013!

I guess I got a little distracted living life before the Mayans came back to destroy it. Now that I’m picking up the pieces from my “the world’s going to end” lifestyle (so kidding) I can start this again. I seem to wander back to this every time I fall of the whole food healthy eating wagon.


Last year I went to far, became underweight. Now I’ve gained weight back and am sitting at my laptop with a beer having just finished some Mozza sticks and fries. SO BAD!


I remember a way my friend described the bad fat that comes along with these foods. He said “They are all crinkly, it’s like eating a bunch of little crinkles that are going to plug everything up and make everything sick”

I am imagining little crinkly fires floating in my body right now.

This for some reason makes me thing of an argument I had at Christmas. I made ribs for Xmas eve dinner with Salad. I made everything from scratch as much a possible…even the salad dressing. We all got full fast. I was surprised. My sister said “You get fuller faster when you eat whole foods” But I’ve never found this to be true for me.  I may stay sustained longer as long as it’s balanced with Carbs, Fat and Protein but I’ve never found I get full fast from Veggies or fruit. I always found I felt fuller faster off of junk, I just felt hungry again faster too.


Is this just me or do you fell this way too?


If I knew how to add a poll I would. So my next post, why do I feel this way when I eat, do others and how the hell do I make a poll??


Happy Eating




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MIA for 2010!

Well I’d say it’s safe to say I lost my battle in 2010 and my drive as well. My goal for 2011 was to find it all again and I have. I am back kicking the shit out of life and food!

The problem for me, as I know it is for other people is that when the shit hits the fan in life I go running to my best friends; Miss Vicky, A & W, Quizno’s and many other forms of toxic, processed,  emotions numbing goodness.

Now I didn’t do so terrible but the feeling I had from changing my diet to include more processed food again did not help my mental state.  Not to mention I was also living and working in processed food hell, but that’s another story.

The only saving grace, again, is my allergies. They at leased prevent me from going into a crazy binge fest.

But I digress. I would like to pick up where I left off oooooohhhh so many months ago with Natural Flavour.

In my research I have learned that Natural Flavour is  proprietary. This means that the contents of said “Natural Flavour” never needs to be disclosed.  If you have allergies….beware. It could be anything. According to the Canadian Food Inspection Agency,

“while the ingredient can be described as “natural”, the food itself cannot, since it contains an added component.” Also,   “Substances which impart flavours which have been derived from a plant or animal source, may be claimed to be “natural”. As well, any additive, such as preservatives and solvents added to a flavour preparation to have a technological effect solely on the flavour, does not modify the “natural” status of the flavouring material itself.”

Yikes!!! That’s all I have to say.

Since Canada is not the only country in the world, I’ll add some info from the country that believes they are ;).

According to the FDA’s Code of Federal Regulations Title 21,

“(3) The termnatural flavor ornatural flavoring means the essential oil, oleoresin, essence or extractive, protein hydrolysate, distillate, or any product of roasting, heating or enzymolysis, which contains the flavoring constituents derived from a spice, fruit or fruit juice, vegetable or vegetable juice, edible yeast, herb, bark, bud, root, leaf or similar plant material, meat, seafood, poultry, eggs, dairy products, or fermentation products thereof, whose significant function in food is flavoring rather than nutritional. Natural flavors, include the natural essence or extractives obtained from plants listed in subpart A of part 582 of this chapter, and the substances listed in 172.510 of this chapter.”

Either way, although these flavours being used do not have their original sources from man made products, they are nonetheless a secret and secrets in food are never good.

So next time you, your bf, your husband, wife, gf, father or mother is picky about what kind of oil or gas they put in their automobile ask yourself this “If I am  not willing to put unknown bad mixed oil or gas in my/their/our vehicle then why the hell am I allowing unknown random mixed products into my body or my child’s body?”

Cliche but you are what you eat!

Today I will be whole food void of natural flavour.

Happy Eating!




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My battle with “Natural Flavour”


I am still in the land of my parents house on holiday. It’s a place of comfort food, moms cooking, and an excuse to eat more junk food. Ever since finding out that some foods poison me this trip home has become a bit more difficult culinary wise for myself and everyone else in the house. My father accidentally puts the peanut butter in front of me (who can blame him, I ate it for 27 yrs). My mom goes to a bakery to get me special soy free bread and all labels must be read. In the society that we live in now most things come from a can or are pre-made and frozen.

The ingredient I find that stumbles my family the most is “Natural Flavour”….Its natural right…..

But natural what?

Natural sunflower? Natural bananas? Natural fossil fuel?

What is it?

I even find it on a lot of my tea labels ( I love my tea!)

So my quest in to find out as much as I can about this natural flavour.

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It’s easier when I am accountable…

Yesterday was Day 1! It was very successful. The only thing that I consumed that was poison was a sour dough bread with half the dairy.

The day began with the toast and some homemade Jam! Mmmmmm! But still not the most nourishing breakfast. You can never turn down Moms homemade Jam though!!!

My Fiance, Mom and I went to scout out wedding locations. After my breakfast of toast and Jam I definitely didn’t have enough energy. I crashed around 1pm but trucked on. We stopped at a restaurant at a ranch that we were looking at for the nuptials.

We sat down at the table and I ordered water. Iced tea, Pop, even most Juices sold at restaurants are dealth to me.


 At this moment….the moment of truth…Would I cave on my first day blogging about eating right and losing weight???

I was fortunate enough that the first item on the menu, dry ribs, was smothered in Soy sauce (why? Ewwww). My brain flashed to the moments of laboured breathing and a heavy head and I chose not to eat any food from the menu!   


I survived the next two hours until we arrived home where I snacked on snow peas and grapes (Ummmm)!


For dinner we ate BBQ ribs with a home made from scratch BBQ sauce (look for it one day in your local sauce isle as I become a whole healthy food super hero!) with baked potato topped with only salt and pepper, and of course corn on the Cobb with a tiny dash of salt on one side.


It was great! I didn’t need the butter, the flavour of the food itself was all I needed.


Now this enjoyment I have of the foods own flavour was not always so. Please remember I was already “on the wagon” once before which is when I learned to appreciate this flavour. You will too! Once you break the addiction!


You can do it.


I can do it……






Oh yea and I didn’t even crave desert!  Woohoooo!

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What made it all start…….

I created this blog a few weeks ago with the intention to start then. However, I felt that I should be done with all the issues that we  ( no not we right?) deal with before I could start blogging about it.


Issues!!! what issues????


I am talking about food. The food addictions that many people have. Most people don’t admit to having such a struggle and hide their food addictions. The only problem is often our waist lines give our secret away.

This was me (is me). My weight fluctuating, my diet failing at 2am with the help of the Mcdrive-thru and the soothing properties of grease, cream, and salt.  The aforementioned three culprits are my poisons. What are yours?


My sea-saw food life came to a screeching halt when I starting getting sick, very sick. I could hardly walk two blocks. I could hardly breath. My ear had been plugged for over three months and I was constantly congested. After x-rays and too many doses of anti-biotics I was sent to an ear specialist. During my conversation with this man (as he froze the inside of my nose) I mentioned that I was sensitive when I ate nuts (itchy chest and mouth). So he did a series of allergy tests on my arm.


Then the truth came out. I was allergic…to everything. Ok not really, but it sure feels like it.


My allergies include; Dairy, Soy, Peanuts, Nuts and Raw Tomatoes.

If you start reading labels you will see that soy is in everything. This made my late night runs, my ice cream for dinner…all my bad habits disappear. I am allergic to all of them.

When I started only eating whole foods that don’t include any of my death foods I lost 25 lbs in one month. Then it leveled off as my body became the shape I am meant to be.



Since then though, like most addicts I have fallen off the back of my health food semi-truck as it barrels down the highway at 100kms/hr.

I live between bliss and hell. In a constant battle betweencraving  my death food (27 yrs of habit) and feeling horrible after (I should have bought stock’s in anti-histamines), and the heavenly energy and superb feeling I have when I just eat properly.


So after that long introduction…..the purpose of this blog….


I share your pain and I am going to document my journey and hopefully become somewhat accountable for my hand to mouth actions.

Good bye deep fried tofu, Hello baked yams!

Thank you,


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